can't fall asleep
Friday, February 16, 2007
why can't i fall asleep when i am so so tired... both mentally and physically...
sitting on my bed.. in my small small single room... i feel that i am in prison.. both physically and mentally too... where can i find the key to this prison door?? who can free me of these dreadful everything... life is a agony... i know all these are caused by myself.. becos of my stubbornness... and my unwillingness to admit lose... i am tired.. but i must carry on.. cos i must win...
anyone can understand me? haiz... i have been by myself for too long.. until i am locked by myself.. in my own prison.. no one can free me other than myself.. but will i free myself.. oh... i tink the question is can i free myself?? and am i willing to free myself... i shall think the best key for this prison of agony.. is death.. death seemed like the only key to my own prison... but i can't die... death is not a choice for me....
当痛苦已经成为一种必然，你就不会再感到痛苦。。唯一的感觉只是累，就像身上扛着无法卸下的大石头，压得你喘不过气来。但你还是要继续走。。望着前面永无止境的路，你只能默默地走。。这条路没有终点，也没有休息站。你不知道为什么要继续走。或许这就叫做执著吧。。明明知道是没有理由，没有结果的，但还是逼着自己继续下去。。在这条人生的道路上，谁能走到终点？又有谁能放下石头？希望存在吗？在哪里才能看见曙光呢？我在等待着。。。总有一天，希望的曙光会照在我身上。
tianhai
3:32 AM
