Thursday, February 01, 2007
i have lost all my abilities...
morning went for my motorcycle traffic police test.. it's the 3rd time already..
still failed.. feel that i can't control the bike fully..
i have lost my abilities..
then i was so sad... i banged my hand on the pillar... lucky the pillar nv broke.. i scare my hand too powerful...
then i took mrt from yck back to boonlay..
i still don't believe my abilities all gone..
so i went arcade to play virtual tennis3..
usually i can play up to the last stage which is stage5... todae i had problem even to get thru stage one.. and i lost in stage 2... i tried for 4 times until my card no credit... only the last time managed to get thru stage2.. but dio trash at stage 3...
i tink my abilities are realli gone... can't catch the timing properly.. and can't serve properly...
then i went for lecture.. then the career fair.. my fren won the AMD need for speed challenge and won a AMD processor dual core...
after that.. i went to meet my FYP supervisor.. i noe it has to come.. cannot avoid de.. kenna suan by him... he say the rest of his students all doing the touching up.. and i am just at the starting phase.. when the deadline is already so near.. he also said wat i've done could be completed in a week... ultimate...
i realli feel like giving up...
i have lost all my abilities... the ability to do things properly..
be it riding motorbike, playing games, studying, doing project, or table tennis...
i can't do it... i am total failure...
but i just cannot admit that i failed... i die also cannot believe i am so fuck up...
i will keep trying.. trying trying.. until i can do it again... or if i keep failing, i will still keep trying trying... no one can say i failed when i haven't give up on myself... i have nothing left with me now... wat is left in me is just the spirit of not giving up... but i am not sure whether it is determination.. cos i have no confidence in succeeding...
tianhai
8:14 PM
